My mom sort of let me down again today.
She made plans to visit last weekend.
She ended up having to reschedule.
I told her I was sorry to hear that.
I told her I had been looking forward to it.
And actually, I wasn't lying about that.
So we did reschedule--
But now she's let me know that she can't make it this weekend, either.
There aren't really a whole lot of people I can depend on in this world.
My parents, my sister ... her ... even Mr. Shifters ...
They've all let me down at one point or another.
(Not that I blame anyone in some specific way.)
It's just that my faith in people has been whittled down by shit like this.
I look ahead and I honestly do not know if there is anything I want from this life.
I guess I know that there's plenty I don't want--death, grief, hunger, destitution ... loneliness.
But then ... that stuff is all I can really count on, isn't it?
Everyone lets you down at one time or another. I think that everyone I know has let me down in some way, at some time.
ReplyDeleteI would have to think really hard to tell you when though, and give you exact examples.
For me, the one person who lets me down the most is the one person who shouldn't. Myself. Though I can't tell you how many times other people let me down, I can sure tell you how many times I have let me down.
Mr. Shifers